MANY MEETINGS

I have had
so many teachers
titled or otherwise
from school
through university
and out into the river of life

people quietly pointing things out to me
and not so quietly
people loving me when i felt unloveable
people stealing from me when i was unaware
people supporting me when i thought i was alone
people appearing out of nowhere, literally at times,
and casually helping me a aclimatise to a new situation

often a passing comment
heard indirectly
something read or a character in a book or movie

constantly choosing "the deep end" to dive into
i have found myself out of my depths on so many occasions

leading to fast rising learning curves
the ability to adapt
and a lot of stress

funny situations and much colour though

now a new adventure opens in a smoother way

a choice has been made
a direction taken
(i love the quote by Oscar Wilde
he says he never opened any doors in his life
but a few gave way whilst he leant against them)

to live in a new way
(an old way actually)
to live a little more skillfully, attentively
and efficiently
consciously one might say

not all at once
not perfection
.....
not that

something else that i watch emerging daily
as i simply stop
doing the other stuff
that i already know
doesn't really work